I have been postponing my last blog post about studying abroad for a good week now. I knew the minute it was written would be the minute I realize this wild journey came to an end. Last week was by far the hardest week of my life. It's so difficult to explain because I'm still struggling to figure it out and put it into words.
When planning my study abroad trip, I never understood how hard it would be to leave. I underestimated the power of kindness and friendship. For me, the most important thing to do abroad was to travel. I can look back at everywhere I have been, but what made it worthwhile was having great friends to travel with and come back to. I thought it would be easy to pack up and leave for my next adventure, but it clearly wasn't. Thinking about it, I can name 5 things I won't miss about life in England.
1. Having to use an adaptor
.....okay so I can only name 1 thing.
These four months, I did things for the first and last time all at once. I was stuck in this limbo of wanting to enjoy every minute of life at Edge Hill because I knew it was limited, and not wanting to get close and create a life there. I was terrified because I started to feel so comfortable in a place that wasn't my home. In my mind that really wouldn't happen, but I was seriously wrong. I had my routine and I loved it. I had class on tuesday, thursday, and friday, climbing on wednesday's, open mic nights every month, shooting sports for vibe media, and random travel adventures on the weekend's. I easily adapted this routine and breaking it was the hardest thing. So, while I sit here in Michigan writing this I can't help but look at these past four months with a sense of astonishment. I never thought I could love a place, a school, and people as much as I have in such a short time.
Time can ruin possibilities, it can pass without a warning, but what's great about it, is it can push you to accomplish so much. Time allows you to figure out who you are while pushing back and making you question your choices and decisions. It's limited, but when you realize this, it's no longer about an expiration date, it's about what you do with it.